| My mind is more creative than simple, i guess because i tend to update my other xanga much more than this.
Life is going well i guess. as well as it could be for me.
I wake up, work, eat, and sleep. r e p e a t.
That's what i do.
In twelve days, It will be a year and a half.
And it's still going strong.
I love this boy more than anything in the world.
He's the best thing to have ever happened to me.
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| you can tell me the phone works both ways.
but we all know with me waiting, im going crazy
this summer i realized i have no life
im going nowhere with no job, no money, and no car
i cried on his shoulder lastnight out of nowhere.
i blame it on stress.
im never going to get close to anyone else again.
i have my boyfriend and my best friend thats all i need
it turns out my "friends" never cared a dime size about me
and neither will you
so those of you who think you are such great friends,
you can fuck off.
im through. |
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| now i know what it's like when you're gone.
& about two seconds on the phone with you just doesnt cut it.
& i want to trust you.
but you know me & my self esteem [what self esteem?]
i cant help but think you are wanting every girl there.
because they are prettier, skinnier, or nicer than me.
three days with barely talking to you at all makes me miss you more than ever before.
[but i'll keep my mouth shut] |
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| i wish people didnt get caught up in something or someone too easily.
& i wish people wouldnt forget about other people completely, because of it.
it's useless trying to break through the barrier forming there.
it's four years against one. |
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| this summer is going to suck just like last year.
maybe worse.
i cant say how many friends i'll keep close after this.
i cant wait to start over with people completely new.
too bad i have a year left of this town. |
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